Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Pockets Full of...

I have the best time with myself. This morning I was out for my morning (recovering from surgery) walk and I was thinking. I thought about how I identified myself yesterday in the informational part of the blog. I said that I keep depression in my back pocket in case I think I need it. It's true that I have used depression most of my life as a way to take care of myself. But I don't want that way; I want happiness and acceptance and authenticity and compassion and gratitude. So, if that's what I want, why keep depression in my back pocket???? My guess is that I wasn't believing that I can take care of myself with the "happiness cocktail". What if? What if ? What if ? Well, I decided to dump the depression on my walk. I don't want it. I don't want it in my back pocket. I don't want it as a fall back. I know the "happiness cocktail" and Option attitude will ALWAYS keep me feeling safe and happy and on the path I want to be on.

This is probably not a coincidence. On my walk, I was thinking about buying a car and then about how many cars will I buy in whatever time I have left in my life - maybe 2 or 3 more? And then I thought " I will die at some point and GO BACK to being with God. I have NEVER had such a thought; it seems like someone else thinking it. But OK, I thought it. And I realized that I don't need to wait for death (or anything else) to be with God. God is always right there next to me with his/her/it's hand out, ready for me to take. (I thought of walking with my grand-children and how I always leave my hand out and available for him/her to hold and almost always he/she grabs hold. I think of God's hand like that - always available for me to hold).

So, here I am, holding God's hand and with empty back pockets (or maybe they are full of God). I am grateful.

With Love, Robin

4 comments:

  1. Hi Robin, welcome to our Blog, nice to hear from you. Your blog offers much to think about. For instance, forget about the car, one day you will buy your last tube of toothpaste, one day it will be your last loaf of bread. And one day, one day, it will simply be your last day. So how do we want to live our lives knowing this? IN other words, what do you want to put in your "happiness cocktail"? Hey readers, lets hear from you. The very first ingredient in mine is Being Present.
    There's lots more. If you're not sure what to put in your "happiness cocktail" consider the shortcuts to Happiness in Happiness Is A Choice. Lets share with each other what really works best for us in choosing Happiness. much love to all, Clyde

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  2. What a great subject: What do I want to put in my Happiness Cocktail? (I like that expression!). For me Love is the first that comes to mind! I want to fill my life with love! Love for myself, and all the things that I do in my life. Love for Jakob, with whom I am sharing my life. Love for my Dad, who I have had so many fights with I was younger, Love for my Mom, even if she is not here with me anymore. Love for my friends - those from Option and those here from Denmark. Love for this Earth and everything on it.
    I want to fill my life and my Happiness cocktail with love, because for me - when I love, I'm happy! And I want to be happy :)

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  3. Wow! I have to go buy toothpaste today and now, instead of just being a routine trip to the store, I know I will be considering much deeper issues when I pick up that tube!

    I have found the key ingredient in my "happiness cocktail" is gratitude. I have so much to be grateful for and when I take the time to focus my attention on all that I have been blessed with, it is easy to choose happiness!

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  4. Hey, we've got Being Present, Love, and Gratitude so far in our cocktail. Anybody up for Authenticity?
    What's great is that when you model your happiness cocktail it's like ripples on a pond and others see your behavior and it can be catching. So what do you think? Let's infect the world with happiness, love, acceptance, gratitude, authenticity, being there. How cool would that be?!

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